When I think about what a mess my life would be if I hadn’t returned to God I’m overwhelmed. God’s redemptive grace knows no bounds. It doesn’t matter how big of a mess you’ve made of your life, he will give you back everything you’ve lost, times ten. Isaiah said it well in chapter 61 verse 10. Let me tell you how happy God has made me! For He has clothed me with the garment of salvation and draped about me the robe of righteousness.

When I contemplate the wonderful life I have today I am overcome with gratefulness. If you haven’t read my memoir you may not be familiar with my mess that has become my message. I knew my husband was an alcoholic and I bought a bar. What started out as a really foolish move has turned into quite a blessing. It had been my dream since I managed a bar at the tender age of nineteen to have my own place. I got into the business as a cocktail waitress at seventeen. I know some people will call it blasphemous but I believe that I was gifted to work in the bar business. God had a plan for me from the beginning. I’ve always been a people person and my ability to multitask made me a great candidate for bartending and even better qualified me as a bar owner.

As a single mother at seventeen, I went to work cocktailing at a golf course on the weekends in San Jose. I was blessed with some great caretakers for my son Allen. My foster-fathers sisters were like family, lived three blocks from me and loved Allen as if he was their own. I worked twelve to fourteen hour shifts on Saturdays and Sundays and had all of the weekdays to spend with my new baby. Man that feels like a lifetime ago. It’s actually been almost forty years. It’s hard to believe that my boy is turning forty in August and I’ve been in the bar business for more than a two thirds of my life.

When I look in the mirror I don’t see the woman that labored so hard for so long just to keep it together. I see a child of God who has been well preserved by His grace. I can’t tell you how many times someone who hasn’t seen me in years says, “You haven’t changed a bit.” I use lots of creams and lotions to combat the effects of time, but I truly believe that God made the difference. If I hadn’t turned my life back over to Him more than fifteen years ago I’m sure I’d look like an old hag by now. The stress would have taken its toll.

After over twenty years of handling everything alone at Johnny’s I’ve finally learned to delegate and enlist help. I’ve hired a manger to assist me as well as take care of things for me while I’m gone. I’m kicking myself for not doing it years ago. Once again, I trust God’s timing. I’m where I need to be financially and mentally and spiritually I’m ready to embrace help. As I’m preparing for the 70th Anniversary Hollister Independence Rally with the help of my manager, I’m blown away by the fact that I did it alone for so many years. To all of you type-A control freaks that are killing yourselves working too hard because you don’t want to enlist help I say, “Knock it off!” Believe me, you need to delegate. You need to trust others to help you. Even if everything doesn’t get done just the way you would do it, it will get done. Besides, who says your way is always the best way?

That is one of the mindsets that God has had to really work with me on. No matter how small the task, I think I know the best way to get-er-done. Have I got any sisters or brothers out there? Are you exhausted from trying to run the world? Take it from me; you won’t do a very good job anyway. God didn’t put us in charge of the world. That’s His job. Now that I prayerfully approach everything in my life I have so much peace. If you truly trust God with your life and you talk with Him about all of your decisions, you need to believe that He’s got your back. Saying that you have faith in God for all of your needs but then worrying and fretting over everything doesn’t work. It defies the definition of faith. Faith is: 1. Belief that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence. 2. The theological virtue defined as secure belief in God and a trusting acceptance of God’s will.

So as I move into the craziest time of my year, leaning on, trusting in and relying on God I ask you, do you really have faith in God? Are you capable of casting your cares on Him? Here are some great scriptures to refer to for help in the faith department.

Psalm 55:22- Give your burdens to the Lord. He will carry them. He will not permit the godly to slip or fall.

1 Peter 5:7- Let Him have all of your worries and cares, for He is always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you.

Isaiah 41:10- Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Matthew 11:28- Come to me all you labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

I hope that sharing a little bit of my story will inspire some of you to stretch your faith. If you’d like to know more about how to do that or if you are a struggling codependent I’d like to help. Sign up for a free 30-minute strategy session and let’s chat. My biggest joy in life is helping others to find the freedom that comes from leaning on God for all of your needs. The peace and joy waiting for you is right there in His outstretched arms.

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